After years of not knowing what I wanted to do in life, I found what I needed. I've been jumping careers for years and I'm finally comfortable with what I'm trying to do. With that, I don't feel like I'm moving fast enough. Every moment I'm not working on improving at this thing, I feel like it is wasted. I have to make consious decisions to spend time with myself and loved ones and not focus on education and work. It's suffocating me. I find myself turning back to drugs in order to cope which causes more problems than I had originally.