A couple of years back I went to Germany on a Uni exchange program, met this cute girl from the States and fell for her. Everything was fine in Germany, but a couple of months after she returned to the states and I returned back to my home country she wanted to have a serious talk one night while we were skyping, she told me that my need for regular skype sessions and the distance have taken their toll on her and that she wants to end it but is incapable of it and that I'm the one who should end the relationship. I ended it and fell into a really big depressive episode, because there was also alot of other bad shit happening in my life at that moment. Now a few years have passed and I feel ready to start datng again, but I still have the tought of her in my head even though I don't want it or try to think about her and that just puts me off because I don't want to be the cause for a shitty relationship, I have been in a long and shitty relationship before that, she was the first person to love me back. I know that it might be my fault for being possesive but I just wanted to hear from her on a regular and not have a big gap in seeing and or hearing her. Also sorry for the shitty english, I don't have the time to practice and improve it these days.