This is banal compared to the others.
24 years old. I always suppressed any form of feelings for any girl I fancied and never had an intimate relationship. Only meaningless sex to try to fill the void inside.
I might have fallen in love last year. I worked with a girl for a little over a month and I couldn't suffocate my emotions like I usually do. She has a boyfriend and is planning to move abroad so I know that it is impossible for any chance of there being an "us", yet I still think about her almost an entire year later. She's smart, drop dead gorgeous and genuinely a nice person. She also has an un-diagnosed auto-immune disease which makes her life a painful hell yet she has such a willpower that she can hide it and act like life's normal.
She came and bought me a drink this week and I told her that I had a crush on her. Things weren't very awkward afterwards but I realized that I need to get in touch with my feelings or else I'm going to go crazy/scare any potential romantic interest away. I fucking loathe myself and no-one is going to find me attractive until I get my shit together.