>>7332012>set up a trigger for you to consume a drug whenever you are feeling anxious>by the way you will develop a tolerance and the trigger will be strengthened by more consumption>dw bro you can't get addicted>its my choice, can stop any time I want
Reminder that weed drains all willpower.
What I think OP wants is the willpower to be entirely in control of the processes happening in his brain, which clearly he doesn't currently have. Enough willpower to dispel anxious thoughts, enough to re-shape his condition to one of positive, progressive, enabling, motivating thoughts. Ultimately, enough willpower to change any aspect of his state of mind, and in turn his state of being, that he chooses to.
Meditation (the act of training oneself to become mindful) is the #1 thing above all else that allows you to do this. Meditation gives willpower, it gives the ability to think exactly and only what you want, that sounds like you might be deluding yourself into an alternate reality where you're ignorant of the facts, but it's the exact opposite. Mindfulness is complete awareness, but also complete control of attention. The fact is that being anxious is the deluded state, it is a trained response that comes from consistent exposure to things that scare you, so first understand that your natural anxious self is a delusion, and the cycle of anxious thought leading to anxiety leading to anxious thought is completely pointless. Then eradicate your fears by reconciling them within your mind, setting yourself on the right path one step at a time. 1) meditation is one of the hardest routines to keep, because it provides no dopamine, and so there is no incentive to repeat the action. and 2) no matter what you do in life, the learning curve is not linear, so even if you persist at something for two weeks (or more) and see no difference, persevere, remind yourself that the delayed gratification of a greater goal is something you signed up for to begin with.