i feel you, always been someone who's alone. in a way, loneliness is a comforting feeling but in the same way it is a very crushing feeling. i have always enjoyed video games and the internet so not having very many friends was never a big deal to me. i listen to a lot of music to distract myself from the feels. i think loneliness is an inevitability. as you get older work gets more important then friends and what not, that's quite depressing i suppose. I don't know what i would do now if i had a full set of friends and a real social life. that kind of thing is almost an alien idea to me. it's never happened so why should it now? maybe i'm just not a fun person, maybe i'm just to anti-social. maybe it's this or that, maybe it'll get better tomorrow.