Going even further, I believe that what is most important going forward is working on yourself.
From your posts, there is obviously a lot of self loathing going on. From this meager interaction with you, I obviously can't know whether this self-hate is situational, but given the overall mood of today's youth, I'd wager it carries more often into your life then you would like it to.
Speak with a therapist and psychiatrist. Find the root of your negative self image, and work to accept the negative aspects of yourself as a aspect of yourself you may need to live with, and work with the support network you have to over come those that can be overcome.