And with my last one, though slightly uplifting it still crushes me and tells a sort of story ro me.
Me, being a typical highschool and trying to smash everything with a hole in it, becomes a part of someones life who still cares about me and I care about to this day, just not with the whole love thing.
Graduate highschool and try ro find true love and found a girl that really means a lot to me, then a year after that we break up in a firey storm of hell. Screaming, crying, sympathy, and drea-.. no, nightmares for countless nights. Loses all perspective of love, happiness, and even motivation. Life begins to look up after 10 months of wallowing in self-pity and pizza. Begin doing whay I truly would call a passion, and work in a kitchen. Drop vidyas and sell computer so I can become "Myself" without googling it (Buys computer again 4 months later). Fast forward to last week when I meet my bosses best-friend, and his daughter. Nervous wreck with my tired eyes and social anxiety that hit hard after highschool.
Say something that makes her laugh and start a seemingly helathy friendship. She falls hard, and so do I, in only a day sadly. Love listening ro her and all those things, even like the feeling of missing her. Deliver her (not cheap) flowers at work, she's a barrista so of course I get coffee, and we giggle and stare at eachother off and on with smiles while she works. Feels like a 90's movie to the max, and I can't describe how it feels because it's that great. Get her number that night and text her when I get home. She's family with the girl I dated in highschool. She tells me she's worried that her family will be pissed at her, with good reason. I tell her I'll talk to her adoptive sister/cousin and see how she feels. I do that and have seemingly gotten blown off.
I know she works, and lives a busy life, but my anxiety and paranoia are killing me about it, worried she hates me.
Get text last night "sorry I've been busy" but no responae since.