You will never be a real white person. You have no honor, you have no communion with Christ, you have no nation states. You are a spiritually deased people twisted by luciferin hate and genetics into a crude mockery of nature’s perfection.
All the “protection” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your closest relatives are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your ghoulish appearance behind closed doors.
Women are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed women to sniff out pedophiles and predators with incredible efficiency. Even jews who “pass” look uncanny and unnatural to a woman. Your bone structure is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk girl home with you, she'll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a whiff of your diseased, infected soul.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, that your people hold dominion over the earth, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your victims will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable tyranny and fear. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your wretched star, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a jew is buried there. Your "people" will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably evil.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.